Today I learnt that I am neither isolated nor trapped. If I don’t like the situation that I am in, only I know how to fully change it, and if I feel that I can’t either the problem isn’t big enough for me to want to change or time will smooth the creases out.
Vespera; all i have left is the power to refuse.
Hello. I'm Jalisa.
How are you?
I'm a sixteen year old college student from Huddersfield, England.
My story is a long one but I'm not afraid to share it any more. I am happy and that's all that matters now. I'm a girl and I fall in love with people, not their genders.
I'm a recovering self harmer, stopping is so much harder than I had thought. My recovery is a slow but steady one. I have good days and bad days but I'm doing what I feel is best for me and it's working.
The things closest to my heart include Amy Winehouse, Body modification, Books, Ronnie Radke, Skins and Disney. I am obsessive. I fall in love with everything and my passion can become my downfall.
I listen to music that screams, and I obsess over Ronnie Radke, La Dispute and Marianas Trench. I think suicide girls is art, and not porn and I have no clue what the fuck I want to do with my life at all. I think that the future scares me more than anything else.
My posts are mostly about my life, quotes from books that I love, naked people, Wiccan craft, satanism, gore, rants, tears and things that make me happy.
I have changed so much these past couple of years in every way, and luckily it's all documented right here.
following
Tagged
todayi
Today, I learnt that sometimes listening to other people can be more emotionally satisfying that having somebody listen to you.
Today I learnt that I constantly put everybody else above myself.
Not in time or effort or anything that would actually make me a good person but in respect and self worth. I put myself below people all the time and this is why I allow myself to be treated the way that I am by others and that I will so often do something that somebody else asks of me. Because they’re better than me.
Today I learnt that I have to stop wishing to be anybody but myself.
Today I learnt that I hate the person that I have been more than I hate the person that I am, and that I hate my body and my inability to change it more than I hate both of the first things combined.
Today I learnt that I have spent way too long being self-destructive because of brents other peoples actions, and taking it out on myself is hurting me and only me and won’t change anything.
Today I learnt that I will always have people there for me.
Today I learnt that sometimes you have to let go of the things that you care about.
Today I learnt that I don’t know myself any better than everybody else.
Today, I learnt that no matter what, The Circus Of Horrors will never fail to amaze me or creep me out and that show girls will always be hot.
Today, I learnt that sometimes you’ve got to give up things that you want to keep in order for everything to turn out okay.
Today I learnt that you don’t have to understand or even believe that somebody loves you unconditionally for it to be true.
Today I learnt that I need to stop thinking so little of myself.
Today I learnt that a creative mind can’t always have a quiet mouth.
If I have learnt anything in life, this is it.
(Source: dattcass)
Today I learnt that everything is a case of mind over matter.
-
My newest ink.
If you get this, you are cool. :D -
-
For Bridget who had a confrontation with a rude fashion blogger recently
